For twelve years, I lived with questions no mother should have to ask. My daughter, born with a disability that made walking impossible, vanished without a trace one afternoon. The open front door. My ex-husband, oddly relaxed in the garden. Nothing about that day ever made sense. The police found nothing. I blamed myself, until last week, when my dying ex looked me in the eyes and finally told me what really happened… What he revealed shattered everything I thought I knew.
Last Thursday, I was washing dishes when the phone rang. I dried my hands and answered quickly, expecting a telemarketer. To my surprise, it was a nurse. 'Your ex-husband, Richard, is in the hospital,' she said. My heart skipped a beat. Why was she calling me? 'He’s not doing well, and I thought you should know,' she continued. It felt strange to get such news, considering we hadn’t spoken in years.
The hospital’s doctor got on the line next. 'Richard doesn’t have much time,' she said. 'A few days, maybe less. It would be good if you could visit.' Her words hung in the air, heavy yet hollow. I sat with the receiver pressed to my ear, momentarily speechless. A few days? Her voice was gentle but firm, urging me to hurry. It was as if the universe itself demanded I see him one last time.
After hanging up, I sat at the kitchen table, staring out the window. Our divorce had left bitter memories, yet despite everything, a small part of me felt compelled to go. My heart was on a tightrope, balancing between resentment and a vague sense of obligation. As minutes ticked by, I couldn't shake the feeling that this was something I had to do, whether I wanted to or not.
At that moment, I realized I needed company. I called my best friend Emma. 'I need to visit Richard,' I told her. Emma didn’t hesitate. 'Of course, I’ll come with you,' she replied. Her voice was steady and reassuring, just what I needed. We shared an unspoken understanding; she knew how complicated my feelings for him were. Having her by my side would make the visit less daunting.
As we got ready to leave, a mix of feelings swirled inside me. Dread twisted with an odd sense of anticipation. I packed my purse, choosing comfort over style, aware that it wouldn't be an easy visit. Emma appeared at my door, smiling gently. 'Ready?' she asked, and I nodded. Together, we stepped into the car, the drive ahead feeling like a journey into the unknown.
The hospital loomed before us as we parked. Stepping inside, the sterile smell slapped me with memories of visits past. Long ago, we’d been here together for Avery’s therapy appointments. The memories felt distant yet fresh. Emma squeezed my arm as we made our way to Richard's room. My heart pounded harder with every step, telling me this visit would be unlike any other.
When we reached his room, Richard lay there, a frail shadow of the man I once knew. Tubes snaked into his arms, and the rhythmic beep of monitors filled the air. It was jarring to see him like this, so vulnerable and delicate. 'Is that really him?' Emma whispered by my side, and I nodded. Despite everything, a twinge of sadness tugged at my heart.